On Sunday 5th of January our lives changed. It was the last time we saw Ash. Since then our lives have gone through all the emotions it is possible to ever feel. Our home has been turned upside down and pulled out to look for any sign of where he is. After hours being spent pacing the floors, looking out the windows, running to the phone just in case its him on his way back.
Take a step back, breathe, look around. the home is left as it was after being searched, the house feel like its lacking substance; a shell without a heart. I need to be strong, stay focused, there are two very beautiful children whom are totally dependent on me, I cant crumble, they need reassurance and as much 'normality' in their lives as possible. Normality. Its a word im hearing so regularly im almost chocking on it. How can we be carrying on as 'Normal' there is no Normal to this situation. I turn on the radio and its on the news. How can not one person not have seen him? How do I tell our Son that we don't know where Daddy is? My boy, my sweet boy, fast asleep as i type these words, rosy cheeked all flushed with sleep. What are you dreaming my love? How can i make each day as pain free and 'normal' for you? My daughter, sleeping at your Nans, so i can attend meetings in the morning before i come to pick you up at lunch time. How do i tell you where 'Da Da Da' is when we dont know.
The answer is simply this; there is not right or wrong way to take each day, take each day as it comes..
Hope somebody sees Ashley and forwards any information they have on to us
Embrace and cherish every moment we spend with our family and friends during this difficult time, they are the foundation of the very path we are walking or trying to find Ashley.
Records these memories each step of the way, the ups and the downs.
Take a moment to remember, childhood goes on. Nourish our children's imagination and creativity.
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